Confirmed: International Adoption, Is Infact, Worse Than Pregnancy.

What a long long long... long... weekend.
Here comes Monday, just minding my own & sneaks right up. Ready to rant a wee bit.

This weekend, God has decided to stretch me, start a little bit of the refining process in a trust area I have personally never had to deal with. So I will just cut right to it;
our sweet children in the DRC, are in a war zone and we have been told they are safe and things are calming down in their area of location. (but we all know that you could change no part of that sentence and put a momma at peace as long as the words "war zone" are included.)
There is an odd part of this experience I wonder if I will ever fully understand. That part that is entirely different than foster care; as we have experienced there, the children are tangible, touchable, visual, culturally sharing your experience- and that was hard enough emotionally.
Now....
International adoption... is in a whole other building (although in some areas they share similar aspects, of paperwork) but intangible, no touch, zero vision, and specifically with a country in war torn region/orphanage/etc... no sharing of a cultural experience.

Personally (like most people I assume), I prefer to see, to feel, to understand on a personal level... and the ONLY thing I understand about this is Those Are Our Kids & God Will Protect Them Until We Bring Them Home; regardless about how I feel about every intangible aspect.
 [Coming from the woman who HAS to know at the 20 week ultrasound if the baby is a girl or boy.]

The amount of love for these children we have never met is equally comparable to our biological children. And that, I now understand how people adopt once and keep going back.
God makes it clear to care for the orphan and the widow (can we adopt widows?)  and once you open this door, I truly believe it is a step to understanding more of Jesus's heart in his purpose for our lives and for those around us.

That is enough for this momma heart at this moment.
Keep our sweet S & E in your prayers and the arrival of Josie (due Oct4th, been feeling labor a great deal the last week)